First off let me say this is my first real blog in a long time. I never really say public things because I dont feel it needs to be put out in my work. But since this person (Chelsea Poe) felt the need to talk about me on her blog, Im going to come back at her with the facts and not cowardly do it either.
I wanna say I loved Queer porn, the minute I seen the scene with Wolf Hudson and James Darling. It opened my mind to a whole new world that I had lot of respect for. I felt like they accepted anyone and they were so artistic. I loved what Courtney Trouble had over at QueerPorn.TV. I started watching more and admiring it all. I never knew the politics of porn and didnt really view queer porn for the politics, I viewed it for the artistic love. I also love so many queer people when they are not pushing their agenda down peoples throat.
A few years ago I got the chance to meet Courtney Trouble and fell in love with her. She was a doll, and a lovely person. We finally got together and did a girl crush scene which is one of my all time favorite scenes and currently can be seen on The Best of Michelle Austin. Courtney was this cute little woman who had an amazing style and was an awesome business woman. I admired her. So earlier this year I decided I wanted to go into her world and shoot some trade content with her and a few other people. I was approached by Chelsea Poe to do a scene with her. I didnt really know who she was but she buttered me up saying she admired my work and loved what I was doing. I wanted different stuff this year and hadnt done a scene with a trans woman since Brittany St. Jordan, so I was game. I get to Oakland and have three scenes planned with James Darling, Ruckus and Chelsea. My first shoot was with Chelsea, and we were goofing off and having fun before it all happened. So even though it was a trade shoot, the shoot became about Chelsea and this idea that they want to do this dvd (which has been created to Fucking Mystic.). I really had no say in the scene, and when I was to get the scene to have the first part was cut out to set up the scene because it was to be used in Fucking Mystic, because it was to start the movie as a homage to The Craft. So in a way, I agreed to do the shoot and in the end got screwed, and come to find out the scene isnt even on the DVD. Which I am not mad about, but I wasnt allowed the set up because it was going for her movie and thats what happens in trades. Really my ideas for the scene were never heard, I just did what they wanted. That is when I started seeing the real side of Queer Porn.
I was now in their bubble, and started seeing the politics, the talking about other companies they compete with and stuff behind each other’s back. That is when I found out about the whole “They” pronoun. It was all confusing to me. But this world was new to me and I would try to accept their views.
I was excited about them coming to Tranny Awards, we all talked about it, I encouraged Courtney to submit Trans Grrrls into it. Then closer to and at it, I started seeing the shadiness of it, how they had a motive to go to change the name, so in the long run they can claim victory for the change when it would happen. Steven Grooby has publicly said they were not the reason for the change, numerous of times (see on grooby blog).
When things dont go their ways they throw fits, seen that in effect at another award show earlier this year too. So I really started to seeing the true side of Queer Porn. I decided I didnt want to be a part of it. They want to argue for the sake of arguing, they never listen to other people’s sides, only their side is right. Ive brought up over and over how Queer and Dyke are offensive words to majority of gay people. But they will tell u that they are reclaiming the word. So when I say most trans women use the word Tranny as not a mean thing. It never came from a horrible place. But we cant claim it or use it but they can use Queer or Dyke, even though its offensive to many people.
This summer Cheslea and Courtney decided to get into an online fight (which might I add is very tacky) with a famous lesbian pornstar and producer of lesbian porn. They were mad because she would never cast a trans women on her stuff. Which, I sided with. I know many trans women that identify as lesbians which I call transbians or trans lesbian. Have nothing against it. But if I was a lesbian looking for lesbian porn I wouldnt want to see a trans woman or be surprised with one. Same goes for the trans women should be shot on straight porn sites. Which, again feel against because the porn consumer comes to the site looking for something, not a surprise. People know if they want to see a transsexual can look at transsexual porn. Prime example, many of my BBW Pornstar friends (which I have shot with) have approached a few BBW Sites including one of the biggest ones to ask if Michelle could do a scene with them. The company said no, because they didnt want to alienate their consumer. I wasnt offended, nor did I publicly say anything about it or fight them. I showed respect and understood their decision. Problem with Chelsea she doesnt understand when to drop things. If they dont agree with her views then everyone is wrong. And there is where I have an issues.
Lets move on to Fucking Mystic, the dvd that they proudly produced and wanted it marketed as a dvd release that had nothing to say with Trans people on it. In a way to deny who they are and their market. Instead they want to fool people into buying it then getting the surprise. But then rush to release the dvd so it can be nominated for every trans award possible. But dont want it to be marketed as a trans DVD! So why did u nominate it and push so hard to get into trans awards then? Ur a lesbian/dyke woman who wants it seen like that so why put it in trans category? You cant have your cake and eat it too.
Last but not least… I never publicly said anything about anyone (Chelsea or Courtney) I have said my opinion on my Facebook profile which is private with majority of industry insiders no one else. Someone from her camp felt the need to tell her with what I said, which doesnt bother me. So she went an posted this blog about me, even though she didnt say my name and I wish she would of. Because I have no shame. She said reason she didnt was because society wants women to fight against each other. Well, I am not fighting her, im calling her out on her lies. There is a huge different. A few months back maybe a little more, I was told by numerous people she was on her Chaturbate show talking about me. She told people how little my cock is and how I couldnt cum. Basically insulting me to her members watching her. I confronted her and she denied it, so I believed her. Then I started watching her Chaturbate show to see how she really is. She talks about how high she is, she is mean to men on there, I have no clue why men pay her. She is plain rude, and also months later found cis men complaining on boards how rude she was to them or at the Tranny awards. Which I started to notice if you dont live in her bubble she will be mean to. Which comes with her immaturity and own insecurity. These men are the majority of people who buy ur porn. So why insult and be rude to them? I dont get it. After seeing her true colors I decided to delete her off my FB and twitter. I dont want that negativity around me. She is a very negative person. She pushes her agenda on everyone but doesnt listen to anyone else’s side but hers.
Yes I have fought very hard to get where I am in the porn world. Chelsea Poe has been handed it all. People blow smoke up her ass, and say how great she is. She hasnt been in this industry long enough for that. I work for my shit, no one handed it to me. And I have never let my fame or fans blow up my head. The Chelsea I met in January is not the Chelsea I know today. She has let fame and people blowing shit up her ass go to her head. Or maybe its all the god damn weed she smokes! Which is so unbecoming of a lady!
Now Chelsea it is your turn to out me in your blog and make sure u link this blog to your response so people can actually read what I have to say!